Since I invariably wind up getting “name suits” types of comments, here’s the explanation behind it:
Around the turn of the millennium, I was trying to come up with a username to use on a particular site that had a shortish character count limit for usernames. My goal was something related to the fact that I would often be making my points in arguments with “holier-than-thou” types by taking what they were saying, and turning it on its head so the offensive stuff was directed back at them.
I also happened to learn shortly beforehand that many years ago “'ape” was somewhat commonly used as a verb to mean “imitate” or “copy.”
I’m sure you can figure the rest out.
Honestly, I would put sleep above a shrink - especially since finding a shrink that truly works well for you is often quite the challenge. You can figure out many of your own problems, but not if your brain isn’t getting the full recharge it needs - you simply cannot replace lost sleep. One bad night of sleep takes several consecutive decent ones to make up for, and I’ve seen some experts say the damage to your brain from lost sleep can never truly be made up for, with the negative effects accumulating over time.