Electrical engineering. I’m not in the department that does all the heavy math, I mostly just do what people tell me to do. But there’s satisfaction in making something comprehensible, even elegant, and solving the few problems I come across in my work. It’s not artistic, exactly, but it’s still very easy for the hours to melt away.
One of the worst things in my life is not knowing where my brain disorders end and where my personality begins. It feels like no matter what I do, I’m never good enough for myself.