Oh. Manic Depressive? ADHD make sense sometimes? Of fucking course. I’m smart, compassionate, wise, and PERFECT.

Half the time.

Then I realize how much of a peice of shit I was when I KNEW I was like that.

Not dismissing OPs issues, but you feel like you relate because SOMETIMES you do.

I fucking hate my brain.

I ain’t sayin she’s a gold digger

But she ain’t messin with no broke n****s

Gold Digger by Kanye West

So I was a nuclear operator on a submarine. Our boats are fucking badass, but when we go silent, the plant still has to operate on “natural circulation”. Now I don’t want to get into that, but suffice to say it means water still has to flow. That flow means a little bit of sound.

Iran has diesel boats. They have to surface every couple days to run their loud as fuck engines to charge batteries.

But once the submerge? Just running on batteries?

They’re quieter than us. We would never know where they were. They could sink a carrier in a second.

That being said?

South Dakota, in 9 months. Bet.

I’m sooooo ok with this. Being able to understand where their depression was and able to communicate perfectly how to shift their perspective would give me a purpose that would kill my depression and realign my perspective.