No, definitely. I wasn’t clear enough but using stress as stimulant most of my life has left me with long term physical and mental sequelae.

Glad you’re getting your meds!

Agree about ADHD people needing to find their own stimulation, one way or another. In my case I learned to use stress. It’s my superpower. I can summon a stress response on command, until I just couldn’t turn it off.

So a big reason to take my meds is to try to replace that stress response since it’s making me crash mentally and physically. Even with meds, I spent most of my life not diagnosed, so it’s hard to stop.

Damn I’m so glad I don’t have to care about how much my meds cost.

I’m on elvanse (same as vyvanse) and it’s the best of them so far but I still get plenty of side effects, I’d definitely wish I could just “fix” things instead of taking stimulants.

Thank you for the link, I just started using an RSS reader and this is my first feed!

I’ve been using stremio + torrentio for a while and it’s been the best for me so far. Have tested kodi, jellyfin and others. I don’t pay for a private tracker, but it’s been good enough so far.

I do want to keep a local library instead of streaming, but I’d focus on getting the things I like the most, while this set up helps with discovering. My ADHD in particular may make me suddenly want to watch something that I haven’t prepared.

I hadn’t thought of the etymologies that way. That’s pretty interesting.

I relate very much.

The meds actually make this worse, but without the meds I’m a mass of stress, since stress is what I used instead of an executive function.

I have typically performed highly in what do as a main activity, like school or work. But soon I start resenting the person that hyperfocuses, because that person leaves me with nothing. So far I’ve burned out of most of my activities and changed careers twice. Lately I decided to get into gardening ‘to relax’ and it ended up the same.

It feels almost like the show Severance, even though I mostly remember what I did, but like you said, it’s as if it had been a dream.

I can get a vague sense of “something is wrong” and no amount of querying my own body will make it clearer. I have to find out in a more deliberate way (could I be hungry? How long has it been since I last ate?)

I think people say Google results are superior due to inertia. Google was really good at some point, many years ago. These days it’s laughably bad.