Is there something like this but where I can feel like buzz in my head. It’s like all of my senses are vibrating. I can feel this vibration intensify when I move my eyes or turn my head. It’s usually coupled with deep task paralysis and disassociation from the world around me.

I wish I could find the right combination of words to describe this feeling. Back in the day we used to use these metal stakes pushed into the ground. Plug the stakes into a wall outlet and it drives the worms up out of the dirt, easy way to collect bait for fishing. Anyway, sometimes you had to twist the the stake in the dirt to adjust it a bit and when it was plugged in, those stakes have this weird electric buzz feeling. Closest thing I can get to describe the feeling.

One reason is a specific manufacturing process known as Kaizen. Here is a quick blog I found that describes it.

I am actively job hunting right now. I don’t job hop too much. When I can focus and engage with my work, it’s amazing. My last job was 12 years and I’ve been at my current gig for 5.5.

In my current job Im a department head with zero supervision. It sucks because I crave feedback and direction. But I talk to my boss for 15 minutes every week and otherwise im on an island by myself. I derive a lot of my self-worth from my work, I know I shouldn’t, but it’s complicated.

I also work a high stress career in a thankless industry that I despise. Very much want to “get out” and into something that is more of service to my community. Sadly those types of jobs don’t typically pay well.

Thanks for the recommendations. I don’t really read much anymore. Something I used to love that I can’t even force myself to do.

I looked up that RSD and holy shit that hits home!

My buddy had that catastrophic burnout years back also. He keeps telling me “yours is coming, just wait”. He had a good financial cushion to fall back on when his happened. I don’t have that. If I lose my job I’ll be homeless in no time. I honestly don’t know what I’ll do if this gets any worse.

I plan on talking to my therapist in our next session. I like the work we are doing on other stuff, but I really need the help with the brain fog and getting my shit together to keep my job.

I have done a sleep study! I have 2 types of sleep apnea and I use a bipap. I get a solid 7 hours of sleep most nights! Not sure on the “deep %” part though. I’ve always been a shallow sleeper and am a chronic sleep procrastinator.

I live in the PNW and it’s a 6 month wait list to get any kind of mental health care that I can’t give up my therapist to get another.

Haven’t done a hormone test though. Is that like testing T levels and stuff?

Thanks! I think a lot of my current problems are layered in with high workplace stress and burnout along with the ADHD symptoms. Big feedback loop or some shit. It really sucks.

Personally, I find that people are most in need of someone to listen to them and validate their feelings. Don’t have to fix it. That was always a mistake I made in the past. I’m a fixer. If I see a problem, it’s my problem and I need to fix it. Just listen and be supportive.

Depending on your relationship with the person, it’s also sometimes okay to challenge distortions or exaggerations. My partner has started doing that for me and it’s been really helpful to reframe my problems.