Why do you need a degree?
You can do well without one, maybe shift to looking at a career that doesn’t require one and suits what you want to do.
To put it bluntly, it sounds like you’re wasting time looking back at this point, rather than looking at what you can do from your current position.
I’ve been in a similar position and made good progress since I had a mindset shift, trying to let go of the regrets and focus on the small things I can do now instead.
There’s no real physical reliance for ADHD meds, it’s used to treat symptoms of ADHD on an adhoc basis. You stop taking the meds, you instantly go back to the way you were before.
When I spoke to the psychiatrist they actually recommended I skip doses if I ever felt I didn’t need it that day. My GP also told me to stop taking the meds immediately when I had high BP.
If OP is suffering from severe pain then they should stop taking it, and at least speak to a pharmacist to get their opinion if getting a doctor’s appointment is going to take a while.
I know the feeling, I had to stop taking it due to high blood pressure and felt like the rug had been pulled from under me.
I imagine they’ll be able to find an alternative ADHD med that’s right for you if it even comes to that. Especially early on it’s all about finding what works for each individual with dosage and type of medication.
You should see your GP asap, and probably stop taking the medication until you’ve spoken to them or a medical professional.
If you’re in the UK then call 111 if it happens again, if you’re in another country then get an emergency appointment or even maybe A&E.
That level of pain is absolutely not normal.
It’s quite difficult, I was told a lot that I just need to get on with stuff and the response was “it’s not a problem” to any issues.
I once had a bad infection on my leg and just ignored it until people at work said I needed to speak to someone. Eventually I ended up at the hospital, the doctor was quite surprised at how bad I’d let it get, and was even more shocked when I said I was going back to work after 😂
She basically said that there’s no way I should be going back to work, and said I needed to take a few days off and take antibiotics. My mum said it wasn’t that bad…
I also registered with a dentist for the first time in 10 years recently, and had a load of fillings done. My mum kept telling me I didn’t need them unless my teeth hurt (they did, but she ignored me saying that), and that the dentist was just trying to rip me off, despite them showing me pictures of the decay on some teeth.
All I can really say is that it’s best to book appointments for any issues, and then gauge whether it’s something that you should have just been putting up with based on the doctor/professional’s advice. Then eventually you’ll get some kind of rational basis for what needs to be sorted and what you should be putting up with.