I’m a human being, god damn it. My life has value.
Do you use flash cards? Anki got me through a lot of uni. Sorry I don’t have any stronger suggestions, lessening your overall work load and getting accommodations would have been my first suggestion. I guess the only other recommendation I could make is troubleshoot your sleep habits. My wife and my kid both have unmedicated ADHD and they really burn out fast on bad sleep.
You’re into an extremely rigorous degree taking a full course load, working, and planning a wedding?
I don’t even have ADHD. I can push myself and focus all day, I can memorise without struggling much - at uni, I could draw you any given amino acid from memory, and that was for an elective. And I’m telling you, what you’re describing sounds like too much for me.
My wife and kid have ADHD and raising just one is genuinely the hardest thing I’ve ever attempted, and I have been fortunate enough to rely on the strongest romantic bond of anyone I know. A kid with hyperactivity, emotional disregulation, executive dysfunction and all is just constant stress. Getting them help is expensive and takes forever. We’ve been on a waitlist for a year after fronting rent money to get him evaluated.
I want a 2D Everett True beat-em-up in the style of River City Ransom where you go around thrashing decreasingly objectionable enemies, and eventually you go too far and it becomes a doomed boss rush where the whole town rises up to stop you
Edit: This might actually be my best game idea evar, OC donut steel
Robbie Ferguson is deep in this stuff as one of the development partners (IMX provides key technologies that makes the marketplace green and cheap trade on). Here’s one of his interviews to start. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fAjYtL6SkiU
However it’s an unrealized technology, and kind of a moonshot admittedly. If anyone can pull it off it’s GameStop IMO. There’s not another global video game sales company with a vested interest in reselling digital games - the others like steam are happy to keep things the way they are, naturally (basically, DRM and no resale).
I’d love to see you get better sleep and more food security. That’s going to be a game changer. Do your best for now and I hope you will reduce that course load.